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Grieving Widow (ish)

@UnmarriedGrief1

Grieving Unmarried Widow - lost my person 06.07.23 and navigating my grief

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My partner passed away very suddenly on 6th July 2023. He was my person and I don't know how to go through life without him. I am taking each day as it comes. #Grief


Went to a fireworks display and got emotional. Remembered the time we went to one a few years ago which was one of my very happy memories of us. Been working to remember the good times with my therapist. It's easier to go straight to negative ones in this angry #grief stage


Tonight my necklace broke. It was the one he got me 6 years ago and it hurts that it has broken. I'll get it fixed of course but it feels like it's not the same. It's crazy how life stops and ends when they go and anything after is a navigation #Grief


Counselling session today we talked about the guilt I feel about the night he died. I've realised that horrible guilty feeling about not being there will never leave me. Is it something that you can learn to live with though? #Grief is hard eh...


Watching the Liam Payne story unfold is really bloody hard. The situation is awful. A young man leaving behind a young son. Parents burying their child. A young man plagued by addiction. A sudden and unexpected death. Its just horrible.


I lost access to this account for a while, just to say I'm back and I'm still here and still navigating grief. I hope you are all as OK as can be x


Not been on here for a while and honestly I'm falling apart a bit as the year anniversary approaches. I'm not OK. I don't know what to do. I miss him and us. #grief


This week has been crazy. I met a mortgage broker on Wednesday to see what I could afford, then a house I have kept an eye on was reduced on Thursday, I viewed it on Friday loved it and my offer has been accepted! Rob has definitely looked after me this week 😘 I have a house!


And a bank Holiday weekend is done. Glad of it tbh. Felt pressure to do things but had nothing to do, and then felt guilty for staying in all weekend. Just wanted to be in a cave and hide. Housework to be done that I can't face. Exhausted but can't sleep. Feeling the grief atm


Sleeping pattern has gone wrong recently. Was doing better and actually getting good night's of sleep in. Back to staying up late and waking up early after a fitful sleep and praying I can get a nap in during the day. Too much on my mind and in my heart #Grief


At rehearsals tonight someone asked about my necklace. She was one of a few who didn't know about my loss but we talked about it. It's the first time I didn't cry while talking about him/that night (I came home and cried though) but why does progress make you feel guilty? #grief


Listening to Stacey Heale talking on @BBCSouthNews about her upcoming book, will have to get a copy as I totally understood - no one tells you what to expect when your world dies. I look back at that night and things I did would seem weird to others but they worked for me #grief


This last week has been a bit rocky. My dreams have been so vivid and all about him and I wake up crying. Some dreams twist our life together, some are just us being happy and some are us in the future. But each day I wake up alone and feel a loss all over again #grief


Met my LPs mum to talk through 'legal bits'. All sorted, we can all move forward without it hanging over us. Also asked about LPs son - he's struggling still...I wish I could meet him and talk about his dad. I still hope it will happen when he's older and makes his own choices


What a trip - Iceland was beautiful, I got to see the northern lights and some whales. The gulfoss waterfall was incredible and I got choked up when I saw it - I knew that was the spot for his ashes to be. A really special country that I want to explore more of!

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At the airport ready for a bucket list trip tomorrow. It was somewhere we wanted to go together but didn't get the chance. Got some of his ashes to have him 'be there' with me. I'm sure I'll find a lovely spot for them. Iceland - im looking forward to seeing your beauty #Grief


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